I don't even know the topic of this post….yet. As I listen to this song, I am inspired to write. I had a dream last night that I was sent to Spain. Curiously, the destination disappointed me. "But I wanted to go to Mexico," I lamented. I envisioned a tourist excursion, yet my heart sought people and the ability to reach out to them and show them that Someone cares. Of course I woke up and remembered that there are opportunities for love, people who need touched by Jesus through us, everywhere we go--and everywhere we stay. And who would complain about going to Spain?!
The other day, I reread something I wrote a few months ago:
"I want to go away again. I want to run away to Africa. I want to hold babies and sit in the dirt with the tiny precious ones who live and play in it. I want to regain my heart and let it be filled with love for those do not know Him, instead of being wracked with this ache...My heart needs to love. More than anything else."
I sense that I'll be home for awhile before the wind lifts my sails again. I've been depleted for awhile. I've been to a few conferences recently, and there have been moments with friends, timely words and experiences, heart-connections with the Lord, that have begun to refill my empty tank. If I went away now I am doubtful that I'd have the emotional energy to invest in others. God is working something in me, something with which I don't seem to be completely in alignment. Today I am thankful that He never gives up and He never lets go. :-)
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